Twenty Eighth

My biggest fear is that this will never be over.

Here is the truth;  i don't feel like life has any meaning unless i have a partner.  If that makes me pathetic or weak, so be it.  It is who i am.  I don't have religion or new age to comfort me, i only have my family, which i no longer have.

And i can't see myself ever getting another partner.  I am old and used up.  I no longer know, or want to know, how to play the game.  Who would want a partner that isn't going to play the mating game?  Someone who won't put up with your bullshit?

The only bullshit i will put up with is the bullshit i can't see or smell, my own.